Remi Bader Reveals She Is Still Struggling with Binge Eating: 'I Wanna Self-Sabotage'

In the name of authenticity, Remi Bader is getting real about her eating disorder. 

The content creator and body positive model, 28, revealed in a candid TikTok video that she is still struggling with binge eating. Bader started off the video by explaining that she had a very emotional day on Wednesday, so she “answered that with eating eating eating eating.” 

WebMD defines binge-eating disorder as excessive overeating and feeling unable to stop, even when satiated. According to the outlet, 3 percent of all American adults struggle with binge-eating disorder.

The Victoria’s Secret ambassador challenged the notion that binge eating is always a product of sadness. “It’s not that I’m sad. I live a pretty great, happy life.” 

“This addiction is the only thing I can go to for comfort,” Bader bravely stated. 

Always remaining honest with her community of followers, Bader commented on the irony of this happening during New York Fashion Week. 

“It’s just crazy that in the middle of something that looks so glamorous like Fashion Week where you are spending hundreds of dollars on hair and makeup and outfits and shoes and going to all these events and taking these photos, I am then coming home and sitting myself in food.” 

The TikTok Star said that she resorted back to ordering the same meal that started her binging years ago. While Bader has made progress over the years, she admitted that she continues to beat herself up over these setbacks. 

“I knew what I was going to do. I wanna be alone, I want to eat. I wanna self-sabotage," she said. "It’s just the weirdest mindset.” 

Despite the challenges she is facing, Bader is staying relatively positive. “It’s a new day…it happened, it’s over.” 

Bader said she is excited to continue her "Parsley health journey," which is a more holistic approach to healing introduced by her doctor. 

“I just want to do things that make me feel good,” Bader explained while listing off things she was committing herself to doing today, such as getting her blood drawn and going for a walk. 

The internet sensation concluded the video by explaining “it has nothing to do with how I look,” a common misconception surrounding eating disorders. 

“No matter how amazing your life can be, it doesn’t mean these problems can go away super quickly,” she added. 

Just last year, Bader announced that she was entering an outpatient program for her binge eating. In the three-minute clip, Bader explained how she came to this decision.

"The past year and a half, I can't even explain how happy I am that I've gotten to the point where I am, that this is my life and this is my job," she said. "But the past few months I almost started feeling… that things are getting worse for me. How I feel about myself, my body, my confidence, and obviously a lot of that has to do with my binge eating."

She also pointed to content creation as being a sort of coping mechanism.

"I know you always say I don't need to make videos every day, but the video part is what makes me the happiest," the TikToker told her 2.3 million followers. "I don't know why that is, that through a camera I feel better, but it's more those feelings that I have about myself when I'm alone with myself. When I'm eating, when I'm getting ready to go somewhere, when I'm looking at myself."

"I should feel the best when I'm alone, I shouldn't feel the best just based on what other people are thinking about me and through this app," Bader said at the time.

In conversation with Yahoo Life in 2021, she said that making videos was a positive creative outlet for her when she hit rough patches with her eating disorder.

"When I'm most vulnerable or really struggling, those are actually the moments that I make my videos because that helps me feel less lonely. The thousands of messages I get after those videos that I post are actually really helpful," she told the outlet. "I respond to people, I take their feedback, I listen to their opinions and that makes me feel a lot less lonely when I'm dealing with these issues.” 

If you or someone you know is battling an eating disorder, please contact the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) at 1-800-931-2237 or go to NationalEatingDisorders.org.